I was 36 years old. Successful in my career. Entering my midlife. I went to what I thought was going to be a regular continuing education event dealing with my midlife passage. In a group of 2 laywomen, 2 psychologists, and 10 male clergy my life was completely changed. For one whole week I worked on my psychological hang ups. I went there unknowingly afraid of women, and afraid of men. My subconscious sexual hang ups had me in a self imposed prison. As I worked on my “stuff” I discovered my hang ups and dealt with them. Something strange happened! Suddenly I loved everyone there! Never was I a hugger. Now I wanted to hug everyone. I felt lite on the inside. My fears and anxieties fled. I saw my Faith journey in a totally different light. The focus of my ministry sharpened, and others truly became my concern. My life was never the same after that week.
My ministry grew beyond my ability to comprehend, and so did my appointments. Being able to LOVE is the essence of the Faith. For me it came in dealing with myself. Theologically I now know the experience was spiritual. I was sanctified! For a few sacred months I lived in a wonder land of love. I grew rapidly for a couple of years. The door of my heart is still open and I continue to hunger for and seek the guidance of the Spirit. This has been my way of life for 36 years and I hope for many more.
Dr. Fredrick Herzog, theology professor at Duke Divinity School, used to teach …”the mind of Jesus was transparent to the mind of God.” This is the true translation of the first verse to the Gospel of John.
Consequently Jesus could proclaim that His teachings were “the way, the truth, and the life”. To Him there was only one rule of life …”Love of God, neighbor, and self”. Pure love casts out fear. Pure love wishes the best for everybody. It is not a sexual expression, even though, dealing with sex is often the door to this love. It is a recognition factor … a recognition of the existence of another human being. Sex outside of marriage destroys love. Too many church people get to this door and evil diverts them to shame, and self loathing. They are no longer able to love self, and consequently flunk the prime directive of Jesus, and distort the way all together. Aah, but to wish the best for a person is totally different. In this experience one delights in seeing them grow in the faith, and grow in their ability to handle the difficulties of life. Deep levels of trust develop and the gospel of the way is proven to be true.
Serious Christians seek this way. It consists of our commitment to Christ, allowing his love to penetrate our hearts, and allowing the Holy Spirit to direct our lives.
Out of my experience I discovered that there is within every Christian a hunger to know and to serve Christ. Every Christian wants to live in love. All of us want to recognize the Spirits presence. When we encourage each other to seek the Spirit and act on its directions we become the true church. Everyone shares ownership in it. Outsiders are all seeking the church. Be the church and your congregation will grow! This experience can not be programmed. It has to be practiced. It is as simple and as complicated as: “Receive a blessing, be a blessing”
Tom Faggart